Pornography Of Despair

The The


Three Orange Kisses From Kazan

When my body gets up out of my bed
I'm always singing in my head
I am lucky
There are people doing what they do best
Simply cleaning up the mess for the rest
I'd say their lives are not in their hands
They're just doing what their bosses demand
I'd say take your boss in your hand
And squeeze it until you hear this sound
I was always having trouble keeping body & soul together
I would bury my chin in my chest
But no one would ever dig it out
And so put my mind at rest
Why do people never say what they mean?
Why do people just repeat what they read?
I'd say are lives are not in our hands
We're doing what our guts demand
I say take our guts in our hands
Before they turn the earth into sand

The Nature of Virtue

Don't change yourself to suit everybody else
Don't change yourself to suit everybody else
You lay staring at your ceiling through all of the night
And out to haunt you come the ghosts of your life
You bury your head in a bone colored cradle
But do you sleep with a smile upon your face?
They say into every life a little rain must fall
But your dream cloud has burst
And dripped all over your face
A sick body forms a sick mind
But you're duty bound to do what's right
Is that the oasis of light in the darkness of your life?
You can't admit, but you can't deny
A small heart, a spiteful mind
Are you good or bad you ask yourself
And do the things you do hurt the ones who care the most for you
Are you good or bad you ask yourself
And do the things you do hurt the ones who care the most for you
Don't change yourself to suit everybody else
Don't change yourself to suit everybody else...

Mental Healing Process

Tumble from your bed
Gonna watch the bathroom mirror reflect the past
As the sands of time slip discreetly through the cracks
Of the floorboards in your room
And through the crack in your other looking glass
Keep on making those pointless decisions everyday
You'll be in another world tonight anyway
Just relax and let your memory serve you
Up the path
Through your heart
And out through the holes in your eyes
You only think you have everything
There remains a little hollow in your heart that you're unable to feel
And that pain behind your eyeballs tells you merely
All's not well with yourself
Keep on making those pointless decisions everyday
You'll be in another world tonight anyway
Just relax and let your memory serve you
Up the path
Through your heart
And out through the holes in your eyes

Absolute Liberation

It's like the scenes in my dreams revisited
You see I live in a seashell, free from the world
Sometimes it feels like a living hell
But I've got to keep a distance from the real world
Sometimes I'm grateful for the peace of mind
Sometimes it seems that I'm becoming like the people I hate
With phoney looks and phoney books and phoney ways of talking
They play with fire and evil
Cushioned by the knowledge of their security
But ignorance is bliss
I've got a feeling that words can't explain
A blood of glue pumps its way through my veins
I'm struck dumb with mental impotence
As the feelings in my head explode in a fountain of ignorance
Sometimes I feel like a poor little soul who fell in love
With someone who didn't love him
A thousand unknown pledges that lie rotting inside a bleeding heart
But don't you think you're just looking for reasons to fortify yourself?
I'm clogging up my mind with perpetual dreams
My actions speak louder than me
I've got a feeling that words can't explain
A blood of glue pumps its way through my veins
And it looks like it's moved its way to my legs
I'm struck dumb with mental impotence
As the feelings in my head explode in a fountain of ignorance
You weigh in without an ounce of common sense
And you know that you've forgotten more than you'll ever know
You only read to avoid thinking
And your head empties when you've got no one to boast to
Without the lubrication of inspiration, you're all washed up!
But I live in a seashell, free from the world
I've got a feeling that words can't explain...

Dumb As Death's Head

Accept your situation and your life will never change
Should I do this...or should I do that?
And should I say nothing when I've got nothing to say?
Won't someone stop me, I'm falling down again
Am I losing my resolve to dissolve my weakness?
Am I losing control over my spirit or soul?
This life will be the death of me
There's a silence in my head
My tongue is tied & my mind's eye blinded
Is there nothing left to say?
Am I steeped in tradition or numbed by indoctrination?
I have a worm's eye view of the world
I surround myself with familiar things
I feel my knuckles go white and I hang on grim faced to reality
If life is measured in seasons
My autumn has arrived before my spring
I'm becoming trapped in a tomb of my own making
Dumb as death's head
Everything will be alright in the morning light
Everything will be alright in the morning light
But will everything be alright in the morning light?

Screw Up Your Feelings

Unknown

Waitin' For The Upturn

Shine a light inside your head
God knows you're there
Clean the windows, wipe the tears away
Do you live alone, do you try to hide
That something's not quite right inside of you?
Standing under a tree in the pouring rain
Smoking someone else's last cigarette again
Manifestations take shape
In the staring eyes of a bloodless face
And as the world moves on
The hearts & souls look back
( ? ? ? )
Like the sun sinking behind your head ( ? )
It gets you right there
I stock up my fridge for the end of civilization as we know
(I'd like to think we know)
It's such a reservation...always
You've really got me
Making love - loving you - over the edge - all over you
God, what is wrong with my legs?
They've stopped telling me what's going on beneath my feet
And when the wind is blowing the windmills of your mind
To shine another light inside your mind

Leap Into The Wind

Love me tender, and kiss me quick
Come alive to the sound of music
Under the Monday morning blues
My heart belongs to no one else but you
When your lover turns out to be a figment of your imagination
Shut yourself in mind and thought and contemplation
My cares were carried away by the ebb tide of a sea of sleep
But I woke up inside a dream
Of my tongue melted to my teeth
I try to keep a smile on my face to hide the pain inside
I sit staring out my bedroom window watching the world pass me by
Sometimes I see clearly and my problems are defined
And this change of heart brings a change of mind
But when I'm thinking in circles my emotions are a mess
And this burning soul is like a flame upon my flesh

The Sinking Feeling

Unknown

Fruit Of The Heart

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Soup Of Mixed Emotions

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